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Mister Clean

 Hi! I'm a baldy now! It honestly feels so invigorating and empowering to have let go of the hair. I hated the feeling of my hair shedding all over me. It sounds crazy but I could almost feel the follicles letting go of the hair. It was tender to the touch. Like that feeling when you have worn your hair up too many days in a row. I actually never minded that feeling before now! Once that feeling meant the hair was coming out and matting up it was time to let it go..... It also broke my heart when Braylee would touch my hair and it would come out in clumps in her little hands. She asked me a few weeks ago if I would be dressing up as mister Clean for Halloween. haha! She has my sense of humor I guess!! 


 Here is a picture just from brushing gently to try and get the pieces that were hanging out... 


 And another photo where you could start to see my scalp through the hair loss. 


In this photo I still had some hair to work with.. the problem was anytime it was touched it came out. I absolutely hated that feeling. So I asked my friend Karissa to come over and take some photos of Paul shaving my head. I wasn't sure if they would be photos I wanted to share but I am actually really proud of this moment. It felt like I took back control over this cancer. You can see in the first photo the patches where it had shed out already. Paul ended up shaving his head with me as well so I wouldn't feel alone!! I think we both look better than we expected too! He is truly my biggest fan. Here are some photos. 





 
The shirt says, "my oncologist does my hair." I will wear this to the next chemo day and hopefully the nurses get a kick out of it. 

Love,
 your favorite bald girl. xoxo



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  1. NanaNovember 18, 2025 at 1:27 PM

    You are still so beautiful Marissa. I love you. You will beat this.!!

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