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 I've been meaning to write a blog for awhile. I have chemo every week now and it has been harder to do anything extra outside of life or death responsibilities. So this will be short and sweet. Chemo every week is kicking my butt. As well as some other life altering personal relationships. Everything is getting harder to manage. I don't have any scans scheduled at this time and as much as I want to give you all an update, I don't even have that update for myself. I have asked for more scans and they keep telling me no. They keep telling me to focus on the part of treatment that I am in. If it feels like a long road for all of you, imagine how I feel. I don't have any more answers at this time. I can, unfortunately, tell you I am nowhere close to being done with this battle. That's all I got for now. 

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  1. SasSyPAntsJeNnMarch 18, 2026 at 1:33 PM

    Thank you for sharing friend. I can understand how frustrating that can be. I have been sending all the vibes and prayer I can to you and your babies. Just do what you can and deal with the rest later on. Jennifer McFarland

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